Gaining Trust :)

Back an forth, back and forth, I felt like a rocking chair I was being tossed back and forth to so many places. One day I was at social services the next day I was at the court house each day I had no Idea where I was going to be. I just knew somewhere out there had to be fighting for me. I had to gain trust!

            One morning I was just sitting in my trailer rocking my sister in her car seat while my biological mom was lying on the couch drunk! That afternoon I was picked up and took to social services I knew then that I had to trust them to find me a home, feed me, take care of my sister that was about 1 year old that I had taken care of her whole life. I had to learn to trust that I could keep my baby sister alive on my own and me being just 5! I had to gain trust early in my life!

            I also had to trust that one day they would find me a family that would love me, give me my necessities and treat me like their own! I had to trust that wherever I went I could have my baby sister right by me and in the same home as I was. I had to gain trust!

            When they found me a home I had to trust that they would treat me different than my birth mother did cause she would leave me with anybody she could find like one time she left me with her guy friend and to me that was not the best thing to do cause I was really mistreated and now I have to live with that for the rest of my life!  I had to learn to trust that they would feed me cause my biological mother would only feed me bologna,  cereal with bugs  in it and raw canned biscuits. I had to gain trust!

            I have learned that I can gain trust from my younger years and build on to that and keep trusting in my older years. Even though you may be young to know anything that you could still have someone out there to depend on! I had to realize that somewhere out there was some one I could depend on more that I could my biological mother. Somewhere out there, there is someone that you can believe in!

~*April Nicole*~